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Friday, September 19, 2014

salam dari JORDAN!

in da name of Allah
Assalamualaikum haii!!!

Lamenye tak hapdet blog.. how are you???
Hope in da pink of health semua ye :))
Fyi,, saya di bumi urdun sekarang, bumi anbiya'..
Alhamdulillah thummalhamdulillah pada 16 September pada 5:15am waktu tempatan selamat touch down di queen Alia Airport, Amman, Jordan menaiki pesawat Royal Jordanian.
Agak penat selepas 12 jam dalam flight tanpa transit, itu pun sekejap je dekat Bangkok.
Memang pramugari pramugara semua orang arab plus orang Siam..
di sebabkan pertukaran waktu, bile bangun2 je makanan ad depan mata.. mmg byk makn tapi makanan arbla.. agak tak kene dengan selera malaysia,,ayam cheese?? makan dengan nasi?? tapi telan je semua.

keluar shj dari airport angin sejuk menusuk sampai ke tulang, Allah baru summer belomwinter tu pon da sejuk macam aircond, so kami terus naik bas pergi ke penempatan and di beri sedikit taklimat..
Pada mulanya sebelum sampai ke jordan saya diberitahu akan tinggal di sakan.. lebih kurang macam asramala... tapi bile smpai dah taklimat semua kate kena duduk rumah sewa 6 org sekaligus tanpa senior.
Mula2 agak seronoklah.. tapi bile terfikirkan kos yg kene bayar agak banyak dengan barang2 yang perlu di beli kelengkapan2 rumah semua hampir 100JDjgk.. tu saya laa sbb belanja agak banyak. n sekarang tengah proses berjimat cermat.. aduh.. abes duitkuu...huuu...

tapi kami tak bergerak sendiri sebab ada pengawasan mentor kak aimi n kak ang.. baik sangat mereka ni..
rumah kami kat hijazi ade yg rumah mereka dekat syimali sanggup ulang alik dari rumah semata-mata nak jenguk adik2 mereka dekat sini.. Hanya Allah yang mampu membalas jasa kalian.. syukran kathir..

haa lupe nak bagitahu saya takhasus arab dekat sini.. means kos bahasa arab..
nak kate terer arab tak pon.. tp Alhamdulillah maybe Allah nak taqdirkan amek kos tu.. and pasti Perancangan Allah adelah sebaik2 perancangan kan??
mohon doa dari kalian sbb kos ni agak tough berbanding kos lain...
Dan dah lama tinggalkan arab ni... Harap sangat otak ni bleh refresh balik segala nahu sorof tu..
In shaa Allah... ni nak share sikit gambarlahh..hehe.. let's movin>>>>>


kami satu rumah :)

everytime everywhere, jalan kaki ye 

ni namanya shawarmah.. sedapp..mcm kebab gitu

rumah kami :) cantik kan? haha


wallahu a'lam

Friday, May 9, 2014

aku bakal rindu

Allahu.
how times fly.
and the time will come.
actually, had came

hampir setahun berhijrah ke negeri orang, menuntut ilmu dan membawa harapan ayah bonda.
dan kini tiba masa yang amat perit bagi kami.  begitu juga jiwa kecil ini.

Perpisahan.
Setiap pertemuan ada perpisahan
ayat klishe yg selalu kita dengar..
tapi tulah yg perlu dihadapi,
bukan senang ia sakit
hakikatnya muslim itu tiada erti perpisahan,
kerana kita pasti bertemu di jannahnya kelak.

hampir setahun bertemu muka,
kadangkala gelak kadang2 sedih sama2,
how perfect that time was
lepas ni tak dah,
jujur aku sedih,
zahirnya tak, tapi batin meraung,
tapi  sume tu tak ku buang
akan ku sisip setiap memori itu
dalam seberkas ruang dalam hati dan benakku
agar sentiasa boleh diputar kembali 
satu saat nanti.

maybe sekarang kau tak rasa
tapi aku pasti Allah pasti terbitkan rasa itu.
dan masa tulah kau akan nangis dan ketawa.

kepada para asatizah,
hanya Allah yg mampu membalas jasa kalian,
yg byk mencurahkan ilmu dan taujihad pada anak2 mu,
maafkan kami andai selalu hatimu tergores,
kami kurang tarbiyyah dan selalu mendambakanya.
hanya doa yg mampu kami titipkan tanda ingatan.


yang aku tahu AKU BAKAL RINDU.



Majmuah 1. One for all, All for One :')

 dedicated especially for: ain,maziah,adilah,nuha,jafni,raihana,kak aainaa,kak ona, kak aimi
                                     ammar,hakim,fahmid,taqi,razak,afiq,azri,ahmad
                                   
                                     semua akhawat dan ikhwah apium sesi 13/14 :)

                                     "kerana kita satu keluarga"



mukhlisah,

Saturday, April 19, 2014

sobrun jameel.

hmmm...
sigh...
why? why must me?
everyone seems happy...but me?
why you give me such this thing. I'm can't stand with this anymore..
one by one tear rolling down her chubby cheeks.
and suddenly that night also poured by tears of the sky like it knows everything waved in her chest.

don't you ever think that you had received the biggest test in this world,
look at others.. look at our siblings in Syria, in Egypt..
Are they look happy than you?
do you  know their feeling when they see their parents die in front of their own eyes?
no!
you can't feel it.
because you are not in their shoes.
I'm really sure that we are incapable to face the situation. Allahu.

so, do you still want to make a thousands complaints?
or keeps with "why me" and "why me"?
if we want to compare who should sigh the most, I'm very sure that our Prophet pbuh is deserve to make millions of complaints rather than us, because he had faced a lot of difficulties, ruction whether physically or verbally more than us..
but because of his patience, his courageous, his determination
he kept stand to spread the Islam which we breath the air today.
If our Prophet always sighing, loose hope and stop the da'wa ,
maybe there is no 'bin' or 'binti' at last of our name.
we never hear a beautiful sounds calling us to pray.
and maybe we can't enter JANNAH.

so alhamdulillah, praise to Allah^_^

the reality, our life is always happy and wonderful, for whatever black or white condition that we face,
but we, ourselves..
as Allah tell in Al-Quran "قليلا ما تشكرون"-there're least who thanked to Him


all in all,
make du'a , istighfar and smile :)
because it is the best medicine and it's contagious!

wallahua'lam
blogging to remind myself




Wednesday, March 26, 2014

course choosing tips for SPM leavers

peace be upon you!

macamane adek kakok yg amek SPM?
ok? x ok? btw, congrats and make praise to Allah for whatever result you'd got.
say Alhamdulillah, thank you ALLAH!
heyy.. wake uplaa.. this is not the end of the world !
ya that's true, SPM is your first step to choose ur carrier in future.
tp.. x semestinya laahh... ade je someone ni dye amek engineering, jadi bisnesman..
remember one thing!
sejak 1400 tahun sebelum kita dilahirkan everything has be written
jodoh, ajalmaut, and yes of course REZEKI semuanya dah ditetapkan..
percaya dengan janji Allah..
based my observation (act bukan aq observe pon),
manusia ni banyak terkejar2, beriyo2 cari apa yg dah ditetapkan Allah,
like rezeki,jodoh.. tp surga or neraka.. xdikejar2 sgt pon..( talk to myself too)
for my case,
one time I'm feel regret ( dush!) taking my course,
but, bile Allah dah ketuk dah hentak hati ni, dah sedau sikit,
i try to convince myself that Allah ade plan yg GEMPAK for my future.
i believe that!
as Allah said dalam buku novel cinta kita tuu,,
Tak semestinya apa yang kita suka, baik untuk kita
Tak semua yang kita benci tu, buruk bagi kita
kan?
and everything happen for a good reason, ade hikmahnye tuu..
lagi2 this is my umi's desire to see her daughter taking this course,
ade keberkatan di situ ye.. *mata bercahaya*
even though it's really takes 'an' effort..huu T.T
gambate kundasai aten >_<

for adeks SPM leavers,
smentara masa masih ade, choose the course carefully,
think!
make research!
ask your counsellor teacher!
what are you interesting more,
but, but,
ape yg kite interested tu, are we also good at it?
tu pon kene consider gak, kadang kite minat, tapi kita low subject tu,,
xjalan jugak..
it must be parallel.. kite minat and kite good at it..
tapi kalau kite dah bertekad 110% nk strive kat course yg kite rase kite minat, n low sikit..
just pursue..tapi x digalakkanlah takut pressure kan. x pasal2 bertambah bilangan manusia kt tg rambutan tu.
eh. gurau2 je.ehee..
n for those who got 'warna terbang' result tu,,congratz..
selagi ade scholarship,,
apply jelaa segala2nya...
mara, jpa, ipg, bank negara...semua2 lah.. cari je..
kalau tak you will regret for the rest of your life... *guruh*
hahaha (vampire's laugh)
jangan risau laa course ko xde market,, sume,,
itu sume typical makcik2 minded..haha
what are you enjoy at it...just take it.
kan td dah cakap.. rezeki tu Allah da tetapkanla...
tapi after UPU's result announced, and x menepati citerasa hangpa,
don't be sad.. Allah ade perancangan terbaik untuk kite.
maybe course yg kite idam2kan tuu,,  xd peluang pekerjaan ke,
maybe u can't cope to study that course.. pk positif je (tembak diri)..
we plan, you plan, but Allah is da best planner!
so,, fikir fikirkanlah course mu ( rentak lagu en.mimpi)
nonsence!

klah, till then,
mahap salah silap yew!
hope u get some info!
peace be upon ya!



Thursday, March 13, 2014

predestination

don't you ever think you have time left!
repent!

gulpp . deep 

In da name of Allah

just now watching the Deen Show through youtube.
the speaker who is someone i'm admire so machh..

Ustadh Nouman Ali Khan



As im briefly know he is a muslim convert to Atheist  and turn back to the right track. Islam.
Sobhanallah.
Im knowing him recently since im watching Aiman Aizlan and he sometime mention his name.
plus, there're few suggested vids which appear at left side which is his talk .
Im wondering maybe he's some of the superb people. so just take a look to his.

Yup, really inspiring so much..
his conversation simply attract youngster to hear  (include me)
with few jokes. but still can understand what he's about to point.

just now,
discussing about predestination (qada' and qadr).
If someone ask " Why should am I to blame, as everything is know by Allah?"
slap him.
they may say " why you slap me?"
"you cannot angry with me, this is what Allah willing to happen"
haha..
simple example and seems quite true.

I remember my classmate told about this matter in his presentation.
qada and qadr is simply like this:
the human life just like a group of letter
B C D
birth...........death
what's at the middle?  CHOICE!
 indeed, Allah give u a choice in your life.
You must decide it which is parallel to ur faith.

ustaz also said that
if you are about to make change of yourself
do it earnestly, do it as you are really dont want to repeat the sins
even if you do an endless mountain of evils deed, when you make taubah,
Allah do not only forgive your sins but Allah convert those billions sins too good deed!
sohanallah! Allah is most Merciful..
so "fabiayyiala irabbikuma tukazziban"?
 but
in hereafter soon,
after you're going through hisab ect.ect.
and you are allowable to enter jannah,
and you're happily walking through it
suddenly a wall stuck your way.bangg!!
you ask why?
it is because you procrastinate you repent to Allah .
aigoo~ im just like....huaa~ afraid!!
Nauzubillah min zalik (*~~*)
may Allah give us His HUDA wan NUR..
aameenn..

ok. until this my sharing.
May Allah bless and
Peace be upon you!
wallahua'lam



Sunday, March 2, 2014

why so inspiring?? ~

Allahu. 

Why?

Subhanallah.

the more i impress Your creation that's mean YOU r the most should I impress with.

Last Friday night 27 of February

My mother took me for a talk by someone which i dont exactly know who is he..
umi just said that he is a vlogger from Langit Ilahi. I just sudden thinking that, there are too many vlogger from Langit Ilahi.. maybe he is someone which i never or rarely exist in my youtube searching's box or my youtube newsfeed.
I'm just so-so to go there and not fixed my intends yet, only just to make my umi happy for accompanied her to the program
plus, to get some knowledge from his talk.

We went there without did our isya' praying yet.
As we wanted to fulfilled the obligation as a Muslim, we'd passed by a notice board which was full of ads and posters. My eyes caught a poster which the date is that day.
I'd read the programs details and my curiousness question had been answered 
the speaker was AIMAN AZLAN.
I thought maybe it going to be quiet interesting as I'd watched him video maybe once or twice.
Not as much as I watched MATLUTHFI's videos.




After praying, we went to Syura hall
He start talk.
Whoa! he was biology and psychology student from???
University of Toronto Canada!
As I noticed vloggers from Langit Ilahi, most of them are decline to godliness talk.
and I really adore someone who's study abroad talk about religious thing.

Yeah, he'd shot my head and my heart!
Also, trigger my minds.
He'd said 
Think before u act. Is Allah likes what u want to do? If yes or not the answer is,, is all about your faith to decide what suppose to happen next. 
You are given a situation: There's a shooter wants you to choose either ur mom or Rasulullah pbuh to be shoot. Which one you choose?
O, he really want to test how wider our love towards Prophet pbuh. And the answer exactly based on our faith too. He also said " For sure that situation might not even happen" just a comparison.


Habluminallah,habluminannas
Habluminallah: vertical relationship
Habluminannas: horizontal relationship
          *habluminannas includes relationship towards other makhluk

Yes,you do good deeds to ur parents, u give drink to the cats, u water the plants everyday.
but if u not fulfill ur obligation to Allah also neglect Him. Vacant . NO meaning.

easy says as we learned addmath or mathmod about graph:

even if our horizontal axis  (x-axis) is higher and highest.
it stil not showing the increasing of ur graph n it keep constant on that axis.
thats why we absolutely need this vertical axis (habluminallah).
meaning, we need to balance between relationship to Allah and Makhluk.
so our graph will showing the perfect sketching!



actually, there are many things to be share.
but just this i can share with you.
Wanna more? 
Ask me. In shaa Allah I can share few more.
It's really-really superb talk and suit to our teens soul.
He's so inspiring.
How can I find the second Aiman Azlan? haha
silly question. 

sooo.......
pitcha time~

AimanAzlan with his zaujah, me , umi 

dun jelly :P


p/s: new hobby : stalking his blog n videos
hey, i'm looking at the content too ok! :P

wallahua'lam

Monday, February 24, 2014

awak .



I always thought you were the best
I guess I always will
I always thought that we were blessed
And I feel that way still
Sometimes we took the hard road
But we always saw it through


If I had only one friend left
I'd want it to be you


Sometimes the world was on our side
Sometimes it wasn't fair
Sometimes it gave a helping hand
Sometimes we didn't care


'Cause when we were together
It made the dream come true


If I had only one friend left
I'd want it to be you


Someone who understands me
And knows me inside out
Helps keep me together
And believes without a doubt,
That I could move a mountain
Someone to tell it to


If I had only one friend left
I'd want it to be you


Someone who understands me
And knows me inside out
Helps keep me together
And believes without a doubt,
That I could move a mountain
Someone to tell it to

If I had only one friend left
I'd want it to be you


beruntungnya .









Alhamdulillah...
Aku hidup dalam nikmat iman dan islam.
Sedangkan mereka yg di luar tidak tahu...
Islam itu sangat lengkap dan syumul.

Alhamdulillah..
Aku dihidupkan dalam biah islamiah.
bermula dari rumah sehingga ke alam univesiti
parentsku didik untuk hidup sederhana..
Walaupun aq tahu aq boleh dapat lebih dari ape yg aq dpt sekarang.
sebab mataku sendiri membaca perangai seseorg melalui gaya hidup mereka.
dan dapat dbandingkan dengan diri sendiri
Aq dididik untuk mndapatkan sesuatu dengan effort sendiri
sbb you must have even a little sacrifice to get something
independents, yea but sometime we need to depend on someone
dalam dunia ni kita x hidup seorang ade org lain.
but Allah the first one should we rely on..
don't forget...

tapi..i have a little scare
to face peeps outside
as im always surround with good environment
i need Allah but at the same time..
i need U! yess, u friends..
to guide my way..
straighten my path if im lost
scold me if i do mistakes
advice me when im naughty
O Allah , send me someone that could bring me to your way.
Ameen.